Endometriosis and the hell it brings

Do you know what it's like?

If you're a woman, imagine having period pain not only during menstruation but also the time in between. The pain of endometriosis is delibitating, y'all. I've always had menstrual pain but now, apart from the period pain, I get pelvic pain in between periods for a week at a time. So I'm in constant pain almost all the time except for a few days of lucky respite.

Forget panadol, they don't work. I have been prescribed a stronger medication but I don't want to be taking painkillers all the time.

I am depressed by this, I admit. When the pain hits, I worry, I become irritable and I prefer to spend my time in isolation. Then I worry even more when I realised that I'm not spending time with my babies. I feel guilty at not being able to run this household the way a housewife runs it. I feel guilty towards my husband and my children. I feel inadequate, weak, like a loser and ashamed.

That's what endometriosis is doing to me now...will this ever end?